Happy Canada Day!
Nearing the end of December 2014, I was in the pit of depression. I had been depressed for quite some time. Mentally, I was fatigued. I was unable to concentrate. Physically, I was so out of shape I had no energy, and I did not fit in any of my clothes – I had a 42″ waist and I am only 5’7″ tall!
I knew I needed to do something, so I swallowed what was left of my pride, let my pastor and elder in on what was going on, found a Christian counselour, and went to see my doctor. I was the last patient my doctor saw in 2014 and he imposed new year’s resolutions on me. He told me I was obese, to start being more active, lose 15lbs immediately, and to start taking supplements and eating healthy.
My initial reaction: “That seems like a lot of work.”
But I did it.
I entered into this lifestyle with no goal, other than getting healthy.
My first day in the gym was painful. I could not do any of the exercises I used to be able to do. Running was out of the question since impact on my knee was so painful from the torn LCL. I was too heavy and so weak that I could barely do a pushup. Squats were not an option yet…So I hopped on the elliptical, put on my headphones and huffed and wheezed my way through 25 minutes of wavering between “God please give me the strength to do this,” and, “I should give up now.”
I made it through that first work out…barely.
6 months and 130 workouts later, I have lost 10″ off my waist, and am stronger than I have been in years. My knee that had a torn ligament? It makes a lot of noise, but it’s not bothering me at all. In fact, last week, I played soccer for the first time in quite a while. Granted, I could not keep up with the 18 year olds – I still have a ways to go gain that stamina back, but I felt good none-the-less. When I started this journey, I could hardly complete a single push up…now I can perform fifty with my feet suspended in the TRX.
Ok…Mine are not so pretty lol…
Mentally I am doing great. My depression? Gone. In fact I am quite positive now – for me anyway. I have a new job that I enjoy, and this September I hope to return to university to continue my studies. So I feel good.
Despite how I feel, I know that the Lord has been with me through it all. Through the discipline it has taken to remain active, I have also grown spiritually. I have been learning to apply the same discipline to my spiritual health, having daily devotions both personal and family.
For while bodily training is of some value, godliness is of value in every way, as it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come. 1 Timothy 4:8
The Lord has been good to me.